last i wrote, i was fucking depressed, dumped, feeling my lowest, and very sick.

it's weird how much you can grow as a person in a few months, you know?

i want Kevin BACK. I think.

Getting back together with an ex is usually a really dumb idea.

Unless of course, the things that were a problem before cease being a problem or get worked out.

We had communication problems. Now we don't.

I don't want to get my heart broken again, but life is all about risks. I think I'll take this one, if he'll take it with me.

KEVIN IS MAKING WANT TO PUNCH THINGS.

GODDAMNIT. I HATE HYPOCRISY. I understand you hate being left out. Well fuck that, you leave me out all the time. I find out what you're doing from other people. You've got all kinds of inside jokes that don't involve me. So when you throw a temper tantrum like a little bitch because I have ONE. Well, to me, that just showcases insecurity and immaturity. I rarely ever keep anything from you.

Stop...making me mad plz. I appreciate it when you choose me over getting drunk. Do that more often. I've been sick-- I'm sorry you can't take me out so I can entertain you. It's your fault I was sick, anyway.

I hate that I like you so much, when you really, kinda seriously, don't deserve all that I give up for you. I rearrange my schedule to see your shows. I change my plans all the time if you call and want to spend time with me. I have changed my sleeping schedule so I can see you more often.

I just want you to appreciate it, a little bit, how much I do for you. When your friends come and visit, I throw my life out of whack so they don't feel neglected when you have to do homework or go to rehearsal. I give so much, and I wish you'd just tell me once you APPRECIATE it. I don't expect the same from you-- it's not your personality, and I know that. But. I don't think you realize that any other girl would have left you by now because of how much work you are. You do things for me too, of course, but...it's nowhere near the same level of commitment.

You know what's easier than saying sorry all the time? Not doing things you have to be sorry for.

KAYTHNXBYE.

P.S: ILU.